Make Your Heart Your Home

HELLO BEAUTIFUL!

Often we hear that healthy connections require us to give. Somehow true. But there's a tribe of people I want to speak to specifically today, because I wish them to hear:

You've given enough. Your connections need you to finally start receiving.

I know, for some of you, this is the hardest part.

Today I feel like sharing something about myself.

Lately I've been wondering why people see me the way they do.

Often I get mirrored how people admire what I do, they say it's amazing what I have achieved, some get inspiration from me.

(And just to get it right: I'm talking about the truthful ones, those that meet me on eye level as they appreciate me - I'm not talking about the unfree "I want to be like you" or "I don't want to see you, I want to see you for whom I want you to be"-admiration (those ones never allow eye level to be).

Some people see and appreciate me.

They see my magic and the fruits of it.

I get it - my chosen life in Kenya with a "concept" that doesn't fit existing boxes, creating places and spaces that have never been there before, creating intuitively, not being able to pin my "profession" down to one thing and still having touched the lives of many - all this soul-led "out of the ordinary" can easily catch someone's attention, and, depending on their own longings, their admiration and loving recognition.

And of course I'm honored to get such feedbacks but, honestly? Something within myself never truly believes in that version of Jana that is somehow impressive to others. That "successful" version. That version that is already doing it: living and SPREADING their MAGIC.

I appreciate what I do but my everyday-life self identifes more with a version of Jana

• Who still needs to put hard work in all areas of life.

• Who needs to convince people that I'm doing right, good and enough.

• Who needs to feel guilty, ashamed or needs to justify when things just flow to me.

• Who doesn't remember having rested for days without feeling ashamed and unproductive and who loves spending money more on others than on herself.

• And most painfully but importantly:

  Who never truly relaxes into the abundant love given by people around me, always believing I'll need to work for it, earn it, be more and give more.

DO YOU FEEL ME?

Last week I received a beautiful, deeply touching healing from an intuitive healer student and colleague.

Words can't describe what I felt. The vibration getting into every cell of my heart and being during that healing assured me:

You're loved. Stop fighting it. Start recieving.

My heart opened. And I started recieving.

The last days have been full of blessings.

New blessings coming to me.

And familiar blessings that I always knew about but that I had never truly allowed myself to feel.

And I didn't apologize for recieving them.

I knew I had created them. I had attracted them.

And do you know how much YOU GIVE to your loved ones by just receiving the love they offer to you?

It brings so much peace. Power. Connection.

That's what I wish for you in this season.

Don't only COUNT the blessings that you have.

FEEL them. HAVE them.

For some of us the now is not about giving. It's about letting your heart be filled by the fruits of your magic. Open your heart. TRUST.

People really do love you. The universe and the Gods and Goddesses truly love you.

They want you to see what you mean to the world.

May you feel that your way of being, trying, fighting, creating, giving is being appreciated, enough and a gift.

I know it's hard.

That's why I invite you to do it with me. In a communal, safe and held space.

Recieve my free HEART-OPENING meditation

"WELCOME HOME. THE ART OF RECIEVING".

SUNDAY, 10:30am EAT

It's free.

It's heart opening.

It's for you.

Thanks for taking time to read these bits of me.

Thanks for appeciating me by sticking around.

Thanks for allowing me to shine my light.

I truly appreciate you.

Have a beautiful weekend ahead.

Love,

Jana