Is Your Light A Privilege?

HEY BEAUTIFUL!

 I pray this week has started in a peaceful and loving way for you. I’d love to share with you some thoughts that feel quite vulnerable to talk about. Thanks for staying with me.

Some days ago I told someone that I'm trying to choose my light daily.

The person replied: "Being Light is a privilege."

That statement felt like a punch in my gut.

How does it make you feel?

It took me some days to digest that statement and my inner reaction to it. And today I feel ready to share with you about what I got out from this, because I believe the essence of what I found is a MUST REMEMBER if you're on your path of choosing light, again and again.

First of all, whenever someone calls me privileged, I react in the same, familiar pattern. First: Shock, my body freezes. Then: Guilt, I try everything to make the other feel right and comfortable and I'm eaten up by the shame of me having possibly been blind to my privileged state.

After that? I check in with what's truly happening within. And I EITHER forgive myself for having been blind. I have the right to not know. I deserve to learn.

OR:

I feel anger. I feel pain. I feel that the weapon of projection has been used on me. It has been used to blame in order to self-avoid.

In this case, I went the "feeling anger and pain"-way.

WHY? Isn’t it true?

Isn’t it a privilege to be spending my life choosing, doing and creating what aligns with my purpose? Isn’t it a privilege to earn money through my purpose? 

Isn’t it a privilege if light-seekers fly from one find-yourself-retreat to the other, to go on spiritual journeys, book sessions with spiritual coaches and find time and resources to consume podcasts and books that help them understand their spiritual being better? 

Yes, those are privileges. Agreed.

But to me, that's not what "being light" is about or has to be about.

HUMANS WERE LIGHT BEFORE spirituality was a commercialized industry.

HUMANS WERE LIGHT BEFORE they knew about luxury, privileges and "buy-yourself-happy"-goods.

HUMANS WERE LIGHT BEFORE we created societies on dualistic systems of "privileged" and "non-privileged".

LIGHT was there, before.

The SACRED HUMAN was there, before.

You wish to know how I replied to that person? 

"Oh, okay, I’m sorry,  you might be right, I've never seen it this way."

And do you know what I'd wish to tell her now?

Dear Sister, I’m sorry for the pain you’re feeling about your lightful being. I see your longing to choose your light and I see your pain when you feel this choice is happening more easily to other people than to yourself. I feel you and I remember that pain very well.

And I’d wish to tell you about my truth: My truth is, being light is NOT a privilege.

It is actually PRIVILEGES that made us believe we wouldn't need to tend to our light anymore. It’s PRIVILEGES that made us believe we could afford to not know and choose our light. It’s privileges that make us believe we wouldn't need God(dess), that we wouldn't need Divine Connection, that we wouldn't need to trust in the all-connectedness of beings.

That we wouldn't need spiritual self-care. That we wouldn't need to listen to our purpose.

Being LIGHT is not something you BUY. It’s a HUMAN NATURE.

It’s inscribed in a human's soul. In your soul. Maybe not everyone is here to live it. Not everyone is here to let it shine unapologetically this time. Some are here to experience the pain of neglecting their lightful nature.

But being LIGHT is not a privilege, it rather is a HOLY DUTY.

(And let me get just a little bit more uncomfortable:)

It’s okay not to choose light. It’s okay not to choose your divinity. But saying others are privileged to choose and trust their lightful being to me is a creative way of blaming others for your own choice to not step into your own divine power.

And yes, I am aware that:

Not everyone in this world can live the life they're meant to live. Not everyone is free on their life creation.

But I do believe that EVERYONE IS FREE to choose to be light. To own and honor that nature inscribed in their souls, that spirit residing in their bodies.

Someone who's aware and taking CARE of their LIGHT, their soulful being, their divine nature isn't necessarily a rich yogi travelling the world.

But it's rather someone who's:

• Taking care of Mother Nature

• Understanding what connection means

• Understanding the purpose of community

• Nourishing peace, empathy and solidarity

• Understanding oneself as a part of the all-connectedness of beings

• Having the humility to treasure their human experience as a precious honor towards their soul

And I gladly go one step further:

It's all the things that can be attributed to those "under-privileged" (God, does this feel ridiculous to use this word in such a context) societies that "privileged" societies named the "4th world".

(Ok, deep breath, anger is on it's climax - thanks for staying with me) ;)

I'm not angry with the person who said those words to me. I'm angry about the systems that make someone think that "being light" wouldn't be for her, because she doesn't feel privileged in her society. It pains me what spiritual commerce has brought to us.

So, please, have a moment with yourself, remember: You breathing consciously is spiritual. You feeling the earth under your feet is spiritual. You opening your heart when in the forest is spirtual. And it's mirroring your light.

What if today your being light is nothing you need to spend on. It's something you recieve from.

It's free. It's what you are.

Simply be.

 Thank you for hearing me out.

I'd love, love, love to hear your thoughts on this.

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Love, Jana